the time has come

this time i'm seriously serious.

this is a work related post, but i feel like i've been so negative over at my nanny blog lately that i should bring a little of that pessimism over to this side of things. :)

i've had it at this job. and i have a lot of reasons:

• i'm tired of the kids always being sick. and not just a minor cold sick. we're talking sinus infection or ear infection sick. every. single. frackin. time.
  
• i'm tired of parents who can't say no. it's just a word. it's not going to scar your kids. it's a little something called discipline.
• i'm tired of this disgusting house. it's absolutely filthy. old food in the fridge. a carpet so gross i won't wear my socks only in the house. slippers at all times. i swear there's mold in the bathroom. clutter. missing things. half washed dishes put back in cupboards. stinky cutting boards. dirty clothes put back in dressers.
  
• no leading by example. they want the kids to clean up after themselves, yet they never see mom and dad doing that. it's always me.
• dad is a frackin idiot. i cannot tolerate conversations with him any longer. i don't find his humor the least bit humorous. and he thinks he knows it all about kids, but i hate to tell him that he doesn't know jack.
• parents who after almost 5 years don't know how to put diapers on correctly.
  
• same goes for wiping a damn baby's butt. don't leave bits of poop. not only is it gross but it gets in there and gives them irritation.
  
• it's affecting how my personal life is lived. i do so much here that i don't want to do anything for/with my home. i'm exhausted at the end of the day and hate myself for it.
• there is no organization in this house. toys are all over. food is random and improperly stored in the fridge. i can't open the pantry without stuff falling out since it's just thrown in there.
• the embarrassment i suffer when i take the kids out in mismatched clothing the dad put them in or i realize the jackets i put them in are filthy, etc.
• the most disgusting mini van i've ever driven in. i clean it out (to keep me from being totally grossed out) and a few days later it's gross again.
  
• the parents hold the twins all. the. time. if dad walks in the door, they expect to be picked up immediately. at the same time. and he does. and if he tries to put them down, they scream as if they are being torn limb from limb.
• i'm tired of being sick from them being sick. a blown eardrum, various infections, exhaustion have taken a toll on my body and my mind.
• i deserve better than this. i am an awesome nanny and any good family would be lucky to have me.